We are celebrating Mother’s day a bit different this year. I was supposed to be 7 months pregnant today (I was pregnant in the photo back in November). Collin and I suffered a miscarriage back in December and I haven’t really been the same since. The emotional recovery has been slow and difficult, but I feel a little better everyday. If you are reading this and feel empathy, I ask that you pray for all of the mothers out there who have lost a child no matter what stage of life, and pray for those who want to be mothers and ask that if it’s God’s will, that they will mother beautiful and healthy children one day. Pray for patience, understanding, and strength. If you’re reading this and have suffered a loss, oh how I feel for you! I feel every ounce of your pain, and I pray hard for you every day that God will give you strength and heal your hurt.
For a lack of better words, the struggle truly is REAL, and I feel it in every moment of every day. I’m incredibly grateful for my amazing husband and his incredible support these past 7 months, the amazing friends who have come through with an immeasurable amount of emotional support, and both of our families for their love and support.
So today while I celebrate my mom, my mother-in-law, my precious friends that are mothers, and all the other amazing women out there who call themselves “Mom,” I’m also celebrating the strength of every mom out there who has suffered a loss and every woman out there working so hard to start a family.
I still hurt, but I’m healing. I’ve never felt so alone and so loved all at the same time. I find comfort in God’s word and I wanted to share these verses that I continue to visit when I seek comfort.
I'm not exactly sure where to go from here, and I'm not sure the pain will ever fully go away, but I take comfort in knowing that I serve a God who has conquered sin and death and has overcome the world. ❤️
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
Matthew 5:4 - "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted."
1 Peter 1:6-9
“In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith--more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire--may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls.”
“He will swallow up death forever; and the Lord God will wipe away tears from all faces, and the reproach of his people he will take away from all the earth, for the Lord has spoken.”
John 16:20 - "I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy."
John 16:22 - "So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy."
John 16:33 - "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."